The boys and I took the day off to spend some time with Devaun. Before we decided to take the day off, Peyton and Kaden asked me about Devaun and why he looks the way that he does. I had to explain to them that their brother wasnt going to be able to fight the cancer and that he was going to go to heaven with their grandpa and that Devaun won't be in anymore pain or suffering when he is in heaven. It was so hard for me to see them in tears, crying for their brother. I try to explain as much as I can and also answer any questions they have. I believe the more we are open to talk about it the easier it will be for the boys to deal with.
It was nice and quiet at the house. Devaun was hanging out watching tv with Luv and Sone. He had a rough night last night and was in a lot of pain.
The hospice nurse and doctor came over today to check up on Devaun. Afterwards they talked to me and Luv and said told us that we will start noticing that he will be really anxious and irritable and probably won't feel like having people around much. They also said that he has maybe a week to a week and a half left. I just dont want him to be suffering anymore and want him to be in peace. Its hard for everyone to see him how he is.
A little later Devaun asked Shawn to read his new book "Diary of a Wimpy Kid" to him. The boys listened as Shawn read til Devaun fell asleep, resting peacefully. It was good that he wanted to listen to a story rather than watching tv or playing video games. I think he really enjoyed it.
Luv and I had Shawn stay with Devaun and the boys while we went out to buy a suit and shoes for Devaun for when that time comes. It was hard, but that day is coming and we had to be prepared. We talked and cried, and are both at peace with Devaun passing.
Devauns teacher Ms. Tamra Fuhriman came over and visited him. It was really nice. Devaun was up and alert and talking to her. She had brought gifts over for him and his brothers and he seemed like he really enjoyed seeing her there.
The night ended watching "Dragon Hunters". The night quiet and peaceful for Devaun. Which is what he needs right now.
We are taking it a day at a time, giving him lots of love and kisses and just cherish every moment we have with him.
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