Today we had an early Christmas dinner for Devaun. There were so many people there that brought over gifts and gave their blessings and most importantly their love. My family, my ex's family, the family from his biological dads side were all there, as well as other family and friends. It was very emotional for people to see him the way that he is knowing and remembering what he looked like just a few months before. Laughing, running, playing and enjoying his life as a carefree little boy.
Ealier today when he went to the bathroom, he slipped and fell and hit his head on the tile floor. I jumped up and ran into the bathroom and he was laying there crying and holding his head. It was soooo heart breaking. From what the hospice nurse had said was that he probably was really dizzy from his pain meds. She did come out to check up on him cause he was saying his vision was really blurry and I was worried that he may have a little concussion or something. I felt so horrible that he fell and I should have made sure he was okay going to the bathroom by himself.
He just seems to be feeling really tired and exhausted lately and looks so frail. I hate seeing him suffering and feeling the way that he feels.
I am glad the night went well. The dinner was great, all the people there are great, overall it was a really nice night and I couldnt have asked for it to be any better. I think Devaun could feel all the love around him.
Don't be so hard on yourself Khomp...you know and I know that you are doing everything that you can do for Devaun. You are also doing all that you can do for Peyton and Kaden...you are an amazing mom, and such a good example to all that know you!
ReplyDeleteAs always...hugs and kisses to Devaun! Not an hour goes by that I don't think of him!